Completely understand if you need to be away from here for a bit. I wish there was a test which could just tell you everything you need to know. I would hope that if you have not had a full on bleed that this is just one of those things that happen in early pregnancy, a lot of people will say that they had the same thing. There could be reasons why; maybe if you have been pregnant before things are different? maybe every pregnancy is different? you just don't know. I would hope that you can get some answers Thursday. However it kind of makes sense that if your embryos were 5 cells that you would not have seen a heartbeat last week as they were a bit behind when they were transferred? They just needed a bit more time. Do you think that maybe one has implanted and the other is the one that is coming away, thats why you are still testing positive? I really send you my best and love and hope you can start to enjoy your pregnancy. If you need to talk I am here but if you want to take a break from here equally I understand.
Wow Milliecat they are mega embies!!! Well done you! Lets just keep everything crossed now that they find a nice comfy corner to settle into and dig their way in!! Don't envy you on 2WW-its horrible but necessary sadly!
E2007-Please try and stay positive. Your little one was still there last week and had grown which is a positive sign. I know you didn't see a heart beat but as Milliecat says it could be because it was smaller going in. Try not to lose heart.
From my own experience I like you had the surgery after my miscarriage which was also a missed m/c. From my own point of view once I know that the baby had gone I wanted it out asap rather than waiting for my body to do it naturally. However if it comes to that (and I am praying that it doesn't) you should do what feels right for you. However lets hope it doesn't come to that.
maria-Lucky you 15th March. I have to wait an extra week after that as it was about 6 weeks waiting when I madde the appt. Its just deciding whether to try before our hols in June or wait until after. My worry is if we go before and it takes that we will be away at the stage when I miscarried this time and I would hate for it to happen while we were on holiday.
Anyway I'm thinking of you all and have my fingers crossed for those of you playing a waiting game.
My word, I don't think I could have written my journey so far even if I was the best novelist in the world - such twists and turns. I am full of hope again.
We went for the scan this morning and they scanned me and found a nice heartbeat. They didn't measure the fetal pole so I don't know if it measured the right size for its stage but it's definitely grown since last week. The reason why that kind of got lost is because as they were scanning me, they noticed the smaller sac again (if you remember they saw it on the first scan but they didn't mention it last week). It was as far as they could tell with that machine empty but they wanted to be certain. So they took us to a better scanner and scanned me again. The smaller sac showed a heartbeat too. Then they (by this time there were three members of staff looking at me trying to decide what they were seeing) started looking for reasons as to why the other sac was larger - potentially identical twins in the larger sac? So they were scanning for ages (altogether we were in for an hour), trying to decide if they could see two yolk sacs or one (definitely only picked up one heartbeat in the sac). In the end they couldn't decide if there was 2 embryos in there or just one that was kind of in a U shape and if you imagine maybe they were just looking at the two top sections of the U but not seeing the bottom connecting it and therefore you think it's two but really it's one. Anyway they couldn't decide, they took a 3D sweep of my womb but even that image didn't help in the decision. The other possibility they said is that the smaller sac is a red herring and it's actually struggling to develop thus making the other sac look bigger and thus making us think that the other sac is bigger when that is really the normal size. (I don't know why measuring wouldn't have helped in that but they didn't measure.) So in the end, they decided that the best thing was if I went back in another week and they scanned me again so I am booked in for next Friday afternoon for another scan. I was elated ladies! To think that last week we didn't have a definite heartbeat and now I feel like I have a double chance at it again. Even if the little sac disappears with time, I still have my other sac. Every week just has such twists and turns, I really can't believe it all!! None of our families know about our cycle so it's so hard to keep it all in as well!
I have decided that this week I am just going to enjoy the moment because if it all goes wrong, I will be sad anyway so I might as well have a happy week if you know what I mean.
We did ask at the end if they had a hunch and the senior nurse said if she had to bet on it she would go with struggling little sac and a singleton in the other. So we shall see and I will keep you posted as I have more news. But I have hope again!!!! (PS Still have the discharge but I have almost got used to it now. It's varying level from day to day but there is always some.)
Just a quick one to say I am so pleased to hear your news.
I am on holiday (DH has taken us to Marrakech!! ) for a week so I probably won't post until next week but wanted to check on your progress.
Thats amazing you must be relieved to see evrything is ok, and i agree have a happy time at the minute you are PREGNANT and fingers crossed will be holding that baby in 9 months time.
As for me i am feeling really down again keep seeing pregnant women and babies everywhere. Why me!! Why cant i be one of these people who get pregnant at the drop of a hat. Why do you see so many teenage mums with loads os kids smoking fags and not paying their little ones any attention. Why should we have to pay so much money all because we long for a family, why! why! why!!!!!
Sorry had to get that rant off my chest feel a bitter better for that,
I am going to talk to the clinic about trying a natural fet cycle when i so on the 15th. As we have tried 2 medicated and they didnt work, also its alot cheaper so if they survive we will be able to try with all 3 frosties if needed. As again i am only going to have 1 put back at a time, as the twin rate is so high with blasts.
Oh E2007 how brill is that. YOu just have to hang in there. Each week is a week nearer and thats all you can do.
Milliecat-Marakech!!! What I could do for a bit of that at the moment.
Maria- I know exctly how you feel hun. My best friend from school found out today she is pregnant from FET and whilst I am over the moon for her I am SO envious. Plus she had 2 embies put back just short of 2 weeks ago and her digital test read 2-3 weeks which suggests v high levels so possibly twins!!! Whilst I really wouldn't want twins I still can't help thinking why can't things like that happen to me!!!! And I feel guily for feeling it. Plus my DS's godmother phoned this morn to tell me her daughter is pregnant. They've been married 2.5 years decided they wanted a family and hey presto pregnant!!! Again I am really pleased for them but so,so jealous. I wish I didn't feel like that but I do. In their wisdom the Repro unit I attend is built next door to the maternity wing and when you see 8 month + pregnant women out the front sick bowl in one hand and ciggie in the other I just want to go over and slap them!!!!
Oh my god that is a rant! AF is due if I am back on track and judging from that rant I may just be!!!!
Sorry girls wil try to be a bit more mellow next time.
oh I so remember that feeling!! It's just so awful we have to feel like this. And the funny thing is that I thought that having ds would have changed those feelings but they haven't. My friend did say why should it, wanting a second child is only natural. I suppose she is right. The other thing that annoys me is the insensitivity of some people. One of my friends knows that ds was conceived via ivf and there she was sat on my sofa complaining about being pregnant, wanting her baby to come (she was about 35 weeks at the time). Honestly! I felt like saying to her you have no idea how lucky you are - both her babies were welcome 'accidents'.
I am ok but the longer it is since my last scan, I start getting worried again. It's so stupid, I told myself I'd relax this week but just today I've started worrying again. I just so hope one embie will still be there on friday growing away nicely. The scan is at 1.30pm so will try and post as soon as I can thereafter. I finish my progestrone pessaries on Wednesday night, last time I had to have them until 13 weeks of pregnancy but they have changed their policy since my cycle with ds. It will be strange stopping then so early.
Oh girls I am so grateful for this site and having you, don't know what I'd do without you.
Its so good to hear from peole who feel the same way, as you sid even people who are close to you just dont seem to realise what it is like to want something so much and not be able to have it, even though it should be the most natural thing in the world.
I am so hoping and praying for you that all will be ok, and i will be keeping everything possible crossed for you on friday.
Hi Julie
Isnt it good to be able to have somewhere to have a rant and no one thinking that you are a mad woman, as all you can think about is having another baby.
Any news on what you are doing next?
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